THANK YOU GOD
“I will walk by faith even when I cannot see.”
Sometimes I take life for granted. The every day things like the air I breathe, the ability to brush my teeth, talk, wash my face, eat, hug my baby and appreciate the husband I have. It seems that sometimes I left life get busy with “important” tasks that I forget to say “thank you God.”
Recently I have been diagnosed with a chronic nerve disorder. To say it is painful is an understatement. It really felt like it came out of nowhere. And if I am being completely honest, this diagnosis has broken me to my very core. But being broken has been a place of great growth for me. It is only because I am so broken that I have been willing to turn to God and ask for his provision, for his strength, for his courage, for his wisdom on what to do next. It is only because of these things that I have seen God as my strength when I am weak, my light in the darkness, my courage when I am filled with fear. It has not been easy at all – but trusting Him has been exactly where I need to be. That is where I want to stay and live in.
So, I am learning to walk by faith. Knowing that if I am called to walk through the pain then God will see me through it. When I feel pain I have learned to close my eyes, ask God for the courage to endure through it, and thank Him that He has not left my side. Sometimes we think we need to come to God with some intellectual word or articulate prayer; none of that, NONE of that is necessary. Sometimes no words or actions are necessary, just a posture of surrender and worship. God, Thank you. Repeat that: God, thank you. Thank you for your mercy and grace today. The things I did not appreciate before are things I see as the greatest miracles today. I am reversing what I once saw as a curse in my life as an opportunity to see God as my comforter, my strength, my rock, my peace….my miracle worker. God is getting ready to work a miracle. I can feel it. He never stops working.
Today, I see the gift that every breath is. And today, I cannot stop thanking God enough that He has been with me through it all.
Thumbnail Photo by Priscilla Du Preez.
